As I bow

I was waiting for you to log out to tell you that when you wake up today, things will not be the same, you will search your heart for the ecstatic highs that we had and would find none. You will not be able to forget how difficult this night was. It will have its effect on this relationship till the end. But I want you to know that I have experienced happiness and intimacy and love and will ever be indebted to you all life long. With a kiss on your gracious hand and as I bow before you, I bid you forgiveness for all the pain that I caused you as you find out that I was here to burden you not to save you. I am sorry I had been too much and want you to know that only a man of honor can convey honor and you have honored me every day.